You
don't know what's wrong, but somethings wrong, every thing is wrong.
All these little things that are so stupid and they just start to
fill your head, the voices won't stop, the hurt, and emptiness when
you are left alone won't fucking stop, and all these little things
start falling apart and you're doing the best you can to keep it all
together but the harder you try the harder it gets and who the hell
are you kidding? When you get home you start crying and you don't
even know what over, so many small stupid things you can't pinpoint
one specific thing and it drives you completely insane.
And all you
fucking want at that point is for someone to hold you while you
breakdown and cry, someone to tell you all these monsters and things
aren't real they're just in your head, hell they don't even have to
say anything as long as they just hold you tight till you're done
crying, but you can't ask anyone to hold you because you don't want
them see you so broken down about such stupid little things, you
don't wanna look weak, or crazy, you don't wanna admit you have a
problem, because you have it under control you just want someone to
hold you through the insecurities every now and then.
And it's over
stupid little things, but you know what? Its not stupid little
things, these things become bigger and bigger and eat at you till
there is nothing left of you, and this, this my friend is when you
know you are starting to fall back while holding onto the rope with
every ounce of strength you have left.